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The Auspicious Invitation

My feelings of abandonment are subtle. I see it in relationships. I can’t say I feel overwhelmingly abandoned, it is subtle. Like a ghost from the past. I am glad to be adopted, grateful. It is the only way I can imagine my life. It feels safe. And yet I am caught in between worlds … Continue reading

Make a life you love

I’ve taken about ten steps back from social media, recently, with the thought of making available more time to paint. Two and a half years ago, I went back to school for my real estate license. I sold a few houses. I gave away about thirty paintings, then I sold a painting. Then, I sold … Continue reading

One door closes, another opens

I am a wimp for cold water but I don’t mind cold rain or cold air on my face. I looked out across the pool today. I swam outside. When I arrived, steam was rising off of the water. I don’t keep up with outdoor temperature or even most weather, but I do notice the … Continue reading

Definition of Definition and Other Definitions

It looks like it has been December since I have written my blog. It has been nearly two months, to the date. I have missed writing my blog but I’ve kept up with my newspaper writing and I wish I could share that with you but it is now behind a paywall. I liked it … Continue reading

Build Your Life

I would always rather you tell me what you want, rather than what you don’t want. I believe in thinking forward with positive, for what we want and what we see are powerful indicators of where we are going. There is the common story of a man who did not like the idea of growing up … Continue reading

Love Me if You Want To

I feel like a relationship can survive many things, but not emotional disconnect. For what is greater in our relationships but connection. Emotional, heartfelt, soul connection. When that is gone, can it be replaced? Can it be reinvented? Can it be rescued. Is it a subtle passing? Is it a normal feeling that comes and … Continue reading

You are Extraordinary and of Great Value

I’m thinking about writing a novel, I have some things to say, some experiences to share. I’ve started one, actually, we’ll see if this gets put together. I want to write more consistently with my blog, again. I miss that. I miss interacting with my readers. Life got too busy, for a while, and I started … Continue reading

“Underwater Dive”

I haven’t been writing my blog, lately. Occasionally, I visit in my mind. I’ve been writing my column, though, and keeping up well with that, every other week. Every other week, I interview an artist in my local community and write about my perspective regarding that experience. I have attended a Reading Railroad, visited with … Continue reading

My Other Brother

My other brother, the other brother of c.s.ellington. He’s fabulous. I have the best brothers, 5 in all. Today, I am writing about my other brother. The one in the mosaic image pictured here. I will tell you I met him at midlife. I met him on Facebook, after learning of him a dozen years … Continue reading

Dare to Love Wastefully

I saw an acquaintance of mine, yesterday. I was at the phone store, was having trouble receiving emails to my phone and that is such a convenience. I was there to have the problem identified and corrected as quickly as possible. I arrived and talked with my acquaintance, the man who helped me when I purchased my phone … Continue reading