c.s.ellington
love
WHAT IF
And then, one day, I felt better. A lot better. There is a girl in me five years younger that came back yesterday, I had stopped looking for her for I thought she had long since disappeared. It has been surprising and heartwarming and she is still here today. I am here to tell you … Continue reading
Part of me has gone there to stay
I met Optimus Prime, yesterday, thanks to my eight year old son who invited me to the most recent Transformers movie. I admit, the ONLY reason I agreed to go to the movie yesterday was to spend two hours sitting beside my son and to do something he wanted to do that appeared to make … Continue reading
Love is a renegade word
One month since my last post. In that time, I have continued to attend art festivals such as Galveston Food & Wine Festival. The travel schedule can be a little intense and I am resting today. Resting in bed, my favourite place from where to write a blog. Rarely am I resting in bed with … Continue reading
The Auspicious Invitation
My feelings of abandonment are subtle. I see it in relationships. I can’t say I feel overwhelmingly abandoned, it is subtle. Like a ghost from the past. I am glad to be adopted, grateful. It is the only way I can imagine my life. It feels safe. And yet I am caught in between worlds … Continue reading
I will catch my breath and you will catch yours, too
Except for paying my monthly bills, money means nothing to me. If I did not have kids, I would live in my car and catch my breath for a while. I am not making light of this. I know living in a car is a big deal and some people don’t have a choice but … Continue reading
I Just Finished Cleaning All the Blood Out of My Car
Adventure follows me everywhere I go and 4th of July was no different. I just finished cleaning all the blood out of my car. I hadn’t seen it the night before. I had been so caught up in the moment and in the slobber and in how I could not have stopped him from running … Continue reading
Love Me if You Want To
I feel like a relationship can survive many things, but not emotional disconnect. For what is greater in our relationships but connection. Emotional, heartfelt, soul connection. When that is gone, can it be replaced? Can it be reinvented? Can it be rescued. Is it a subtle passing? Is it a normal feeling that comes and … Continue reading
There is Nothing Heavier than Compassion
Why? Why in the world are people so condemning toward each other? Do animals do this? Surely the animal world is kinder than that. Their aggression toward each other is from a natural state of survival. What is condemnation and where is it coming from? Do all people experience it? I’m in my third floor apartment … Continue reading
Corner of Fair and Hoo Hoo
I found myself at the corner of Fair and Hoo Hoo, last week. I had been to the north side, before, the north side in Lufkin, Texas. It has a reputation that precedes it. I knew when I moved back to Texas, more than two years ago, that houses in this town could still be … Continue reading
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